Coerced into Regret

in my very early teens in the very late 90s I did a gay sex video that nobody knows about 

same for me, w hen I was a kid I did a couple of sex vids with both boys my age and younger girls that nobody in my family knew about 

I was 9 and my brother was 10. Our parents openly showed us about masturbating. They got us to masturbate each other and took video of us doing it saying how it would be a secret because other people don’t understand. It happened frequently. After many months they got us to have sex and my brother would penetrate me and fuck me till we both came. As years went by he started to ejaculate and they’d video close ups of him cumming on me. I didn’t realize till I was older that they must have been distributing these videos to other perverts. It all stopped when I got my period. The thing is we really enjoyed doing it. We got a ,out of pleasure from each other. We don’t talk about it now but it was really good. I know it’s fucked up but that’s how it was. So no regrets here. 

What are the real chances of the porn vids that I was coerced into doing when I was a kid, catching up to me ?
It's always been a worry of mine.

Growing up we only had one bedroom mom and dad one side, me and my brother the other I was 14 my brother 12 we showed each other our genitals at my request eventually fucking each other, we still do, I am 38 my husband does not eat pussy my brother does we fuck at least every 2 weeks, I love him I love my husband too and he fucks me , no babies. Sibling love and sex is beautiful.

I don't have siblings. During my early teens I got my preteen girl cousin to show me her vagina and I'd let her watch me jerk off to it while fingering her, a bunch of times. 
Ok, so like as adults, each now with our own kids, my cousin and I can barely make eye contact with each other. I know I feel very uncomfortable around her. I live in the fear that she'll put me.