Embarrassed

im a girl im 15 i love sports and music and im a good musicianbut i think im gay i mean i like guys bodys and smiles and stuff but im atracted to my friend kaya every time i speak to her she makes me smile i dream about her when i see her i just wanna hold her a kiss her but i can't tell her or my friends beacuse im ashamed this is not the first girl i think i love as about a year ago i used to kiss and play with my friend josie/ we used to touch each other andmake each other feel soooooooooo good