My life was poor growing up. My mother was knocked up with me at 15 and we lived with my grandmother. My mother managed to obtain a GED and worked as a clerk in the county office. My grandmother was a nurse at the county hospital. But not an RN, she had a certificate. We lived in this two bedroom house with one bathroom in the old part of downtown. Dirt streets. I slept with my mother until I was around 13 and then I slept on the sofa. My mother never had anyone over, and I finished high school never having had a father, or a dominant male, in the house. My grandmother was the dominant person in our house. I was basically a tomboy.
I was selected for a scholarship to the Catholic college, where they wanted to make a nun out of me, and got a bookkeeping certificate. I went to work for a company. That's where I first had a dominant male over me. I sassed back one day, angry and frustrated. He told me to stand against the wall and to keep my mouth shut. Basically in time out. He told me to feel, to let my mind feel, and to let him know if I felt a dick and balls between my legs or a hole in my middle. I had only seen a dick once in real life. I didn't feel a dick and balls and he told me that it was proven then, I was not a man and I needed to watch my language and do what I was asked to do and not argue. For that matter, he gave me coffee duty in the mornings.
I stood in his office with my legs slightly open, enough for him to put his whole hand between my legs and press the palm of his thumb against my clit and his two finger up in my slit up against my vagina. He told me he didn't want to fuck the lady in purchasing, or the girl receptionist, he didn't want to fuck the woman that worked next door. No, he wanted to fuck me. He had sex with me, and I held my first dick in my hand.
I got sex a lot. He needed me to move out of my grandmother's so he could come see me in my own apartment. He paid the rent, and the utilities. He had a key. He came over to see me and spent a long time having sex with me. He had me fixed for an IUD to keep me from getting pregnant. He didn't fuck any other woman, he only wanted me.
I learned that a man when he's breaking you in for him spends all his time with you. By the time I was fully broken in it was too late to run. My mother may have not had a man that stuck around, but I did. He sent me looking for a house to bring my babies home to. Big enough so each baby had their own room. And my babies have a father who comes home to them. I know the difference, but my babies don't, their father is in their life full time.
