Urge to be with a man

During my life I had always had urges or fantasies that I never played out. I grew up in a small town and I married my wife when she was 17 and I was 19. An arranged marriage really, by her mother and mine. My family owned the mortuary and I became a licensed mortician and my wife worked in the front office. We have three kids. 

As time went by these urges and fantasies became stronger and stronger. Until one night I acted out on them with a man who happened by. It was in his car, and I performed oral sex on him. He wanted anal sex but I held off. It was enough for my first time giving him oral sex. But it confirmed to me that is what I missed, what I wanted, and I wanted to have anal sex I just wasn't ready that night. 

It was a couple of years later and I was out of town with a vendor of urns and caskets staying at a motel near the downtown. I went down for dinner and stopped by the bar for a beer and entered into a conversation with a man.  We agreed to have dinner together and then I went with him to his room. Unlike my one and only experience, we were in a room and we kissed and caressed and jerked each other and we both performed oral sex, before he performed anal sex with me. I told him I was a novice, and he was understanding and I enjoyed the evening, I had experienced my fantasy.  However, my urges became stronger after that evening out of town.

The big city offers many more opportunities than a small town.  I have to come up with excuses for out of town meetings, etc. to look for men to have sex.  The internet has helped, and I meet up with a man, I always have a room at the motel and that helps, because some men don't have anywhere to go to work off their urges. 

I am in my 60’s Bern curious all my life and have had a few gay experiences and now that there is no sex at home I want sex with other men and wound line to have a friend or two that would like to suck some cock and I really want to be butt fucked and for that I dream of multiple men taking turns on me and I also dream
Of taking a huge cock in the ass. One that would really stretch my home and get way up inside of me and I want to take a huge hot thick load of cum up my ass and multiple loads in my ass would be good also. I dream of big cock in my add and I use cucumbers from time to time and taking my time to work a really big one up my ass makes me cum line crazy.
I wish I knew a few men that wound fuck me for hours

Once you give into your desire you realize how good m2m sex is, so different than with a woman - no maybe, just sex