Masturbation question

When I masturbate I push my fingers in my pussy and rub my clit. I don;t have any sex toys as I have been too embarrassed to buy any. Can anyone tell me what I could safely use to push inside me like a dildo?

I'd recommend getting some safe toys on line. There are loads of websites you can get toys that are not expensive and good for first timers like Babeland and Adam & Eve. One of my favorite toys is the bullet (about $10) which is only a couple of inches long and is multi speed which I use on my clit and gives me great orgasms. Otherwise get a simple basic vibe which is not too big and will get you started for less than $20. Ope that helps

Cucumbers. Bananas all sorts of things in the produce department at the local grocery stores hair brush handles a lot of kitchen utensils have really nice handles that would feel really good and I have used the neck of a long neck beer bottle. 
 I am a guy but I love anal penetration. I have enjoyed it since I was a very young boy. My cousin put his dick up my ass when we were about 20 years old I will never forget it. He talked me into trying g it and we went up in the hay loft. We both took off our jeans and underwear and he jab me on my knees bent forward over a bale of hay as he got behind me. 
 His dick would t go I. At first but after a lot of spit it went in and he pushed it all the way in and grabbed onto my hips. Thrusting his hips I could feel his hard dick in my ass and then he started to fuck me but didn’t last long at all and his tiny load was in my ass. 
 After that for a couple of years he fucked me many times sometimes multiple times a day. One day just before he was going to fuck me he put my dick in his mouth sucked on it then got me to suck on his dick. We started to suck each other off pretty often and he continued to fuck me up until we were about 17 and he had a big dick and shot a lot of cum up my ass over the years. I have had the pleasure of having strap on cocks used on me by women including my wife. We used to have a nice collection of strap on cocks that she loved to fuck me with. 
 Anal sex is great once you get used to it.