Being degraded gets me horny

I’m 25 now but this happen when I was 22 years old. I have never told anyone because it was to embarrassing to tell. Reading some of these stories of people writing about their sexual experinces in great detail, gives me the urge of spitting it all out. So, I had a boyfriend when I was 22 and having great sex with him. I have always been kind of a shy girl when it got down to sex but he made me come out of my shell. He forced me to do things that I wouldn’t have done on my own. He discoverd the slut in me and have to admit I got turned on doing them. We did everything from fucking in a public park to rape fantasies. He tied me to the bed posts and I was horrified when he video taped me spread out naked squirming with embarrassment and then fucked me. The feeling of getting forced into humiliation, was probably the reason why I had such a mind blowing orgasm. I like it so much that I was getting tied up on a regular basis and enjoying whatever he did to me. I never thought he would go as far as to bring two of his friends into the bedroom while I was tied up. I was so overwhelmed with shame being seen nude by his two friends, I even had trouble breathing. Our little rape games were about to come true when they all stripped naked and stood over me with full erections. My boyfriend just stood there video taping his friend pumping his dick into my pussy. He waited for me to get helplessly aroused, climbed on my chest and shoved his dick into my mouth while his other friends was getting it all on tape. I ended swallowing his whole load of sperm and this guy shooting his all over my chest. I can’t say I didn’t enjoy it, because I had a couple of raging orgasms while getting abused. But maybe getting degraded was just what got me so horny.