I've been faithful to my wife but want dick. Years ago I had a male friend who I orally serviced. I enjoyed it a lot and miss sucking cock. I enjoyed being on my knees stroking and sucking his thick cut 8" dick. Most of all I liked when he JO'd on my face and into my mouth, BIG loads!
I am not going to be unfaithful but I'd sure like to service a big cock and take a massive load. I think of it when I masturbate.
There are more and more men who enjoy a good blowjob. It's a network thing, like any other club out there. Let yourself be known at gay friendly clubs and afterwork bars. You might get lucky and hit if off with a swinging dick type. Good luck, from one cock sucker to another.