I'm not gay but....

I’m 50 straight married with adult children i have never had sex with another man but lately have been craving for another man’s cock in my hands. Well it happened and I jacked another man off he came all over my hand and it was so exciting and I really loved doing it. My first thought was I want to find another cock, a bigger one and I want to be surrounded by cocks. I want to jerk off every man that would allow me but now I know I must not. I’m married and it would ruin my life so I promised myself it will never happen again but how I loved the feeling of making another man come.