Sucking my teacher

I am a college freshman and I giving oral sex to my Economics professor. Honestly, I feel like shit for it. I was raised better then this and even worse I am sure he is married which leaves me feeling like a whore. I am from a poor first generation immigrant family and they have sacrificed everything to get their only daughter into college and I can't let them down.

I tried everything to pass, but i was not even close. I kept trying to get help and just before the break i went to his office in near tears and he asked to meet me off campus, long story short I gave him head in his car while he groped me all over and he promised my grade would go up. It is the first week back, and i just finished now doing it again and i feel so dirty. He had his finger inside me while i did it this time but it is not like i was turned on at all. He is fat and much older even then my dad.

I don't know how often i have to do this but i checked my grades on the class website and i went from a D to an A. Don't get me wrong. I am not doing this against my will, i know what I am doing. I am no pure virgin type but i am better than this. I am just disgusted in the choices i am making. But the semester is almost over so i'll keep going.

Stop complaining and feeling guilty about it, start enjoying it, your not the first and not the last, you did it to get what you wanted and your teacher got what he wanted so you both got something out of it, book it down to experience.