I got caught

My high school is really close to my house so every day I get home from school early before anyone else and I have the house to myself for about half an hour before my little brother gets home. It's my favorite time of day because having the house to myself means I can masturbate and be as loud as I want. I been masturbating since I was about 11 or 12. I used to just use my fingers and rub my clit but when I got into high school I started experimenting with different things. Pens, hairbrush handles, electric toothbrush, back massager, stuff like that. The best was cucumbers. At first I thought they would be too big but I tried it anyway. It was a little uncomfortable at first but then my vagina got used to it and it felt really really good! Then I tried bigger ones and that felt even better. I started to see why girls like big penises. The thicker the cucumber the better it feels and makes my orgasms so much stronger too.

One day when I was 15, I got home from school and I was feeling really horny. I went to the kitchen to see if we had any cucumbers and I found a really nice one, so I washed it off and took it upstairs with me to my bedroom. Since I was home alone I took all my clothes off except for my socks, cuz I like masturbating naked but sometimes my feet get cold. I left my bedroom door open so I could hear better if someone came home. My brother wasn't supposed to be home for half an hour so I figured I had at least 20 minutes to play. I laid down on my bed and put the cucumber inside and started masturbating. I was so wet and it was a nice thick cucumber and it felt really good, so I was moaning a lot. I moan so loud when I'm home alone that I think my neighbors can hear me.

Anyway I was laying there with my eyes closed and my legs spread apart with a pillow under my butt, and thrusting the cucumber really fast. I had two orgasms in a row and I was just starting to have a third. It was really intense and when I have strong orgasms sometimes I squirt a little. I was moaning really loud and my vagina started to squirt, and right then I heard my little brother yell "what in the heck are you doing??" He scared me so bad that I jumped and my vagina tensed up and pushed the cucumber out onto the floor. I tried to cover myself up and I was still squirting and I got vagina juice all over my hand. My little brother who was 10 years old at the time was just standing there in my doorway staring in shock. He looked at the cucumber and said "is that a cucumber?? Why were you putting it in your vagina and why did you pee on your bed??" I was so embarrassed and I didn't know what to say. I yelled at him to get out and close the door but instead he came in and picked up the cucumber! He said "ew it's all slimy" and I said "give it to me!" and I took it away from him. I told him again to get out but he said "not until you tell me what you were doing". I don't think he knew what masturbation was yet and I was too embarrassed to explain it to him, but he wouldn't leave until I told him. Finally I told him I was practicing having sex. He asked why and I told him cuz it feels good. He said "that cucumber is huge! How did you fit it in your vagina??" I told him that vaginas stretch and reminded him that babies come out of there. He said "let me see" and I was like "what??" He said he wanted to watch me put it in! I said no way and he said "why not??" and I told him he was too young to see that and plus he's my brother and brothers and sisters aren't supposed to see each other naked. He said "I already saw you" and I said "so then why do you need to see it again??" and he said he wanted to see what it looked like. I kept refusing but then he threatened to tell my parents what I was doing. I don't know if they knew that I masturbated and I don't know what they would say if they knew I was using a cucumber. My parents are kind of strict and they're pretty religious so I didn't want them to find out, so I told my brother I would let him watch me put it in real quick if he promised never to tell anyone. He promised, so I did.

It was just supposed to be for a second and then I was going to make him leave. He sat down by the edge of the bed so he could get a good view and I put the cucumber inside me. I could tell he was fascinated by my vagina and he was asking all kinds of questions like about the lips and the clit and the juices coming out and everything. He said it looked crazy when the cucumber stretched it all out. He asked me how deep it could go so I pushed it all the way in as far as I could and he was like "whoa!" He asked me to push it in and out so he could see my vagina stretching, so I did. The funny thing is I was getting really turned on! I felt so nervous and vulnerable and exposed and it was weird having someone watch me, and I liked it. No one had ever seen me naked like that before cuz I was still a virgin and I hadn't done anything sexual with a boy yet. I liked seeing him watch me and knowing that he had never seen a vagina before and he was so amazed by it, plus the fact that he was my brother and I knew it was wrong turned me on even more. I ended up masturbating to another orgasm while he sat there a few feet away and watched. It was so intense that I ended up squirting again and I had to close my legs so that I wouldn't squirt on him. I was still really horny and I wanted to do it again, and he asked me if he could try. I said "try what??" and he said he wanted to try putting the cucumber inside me! I knew it was wrong but the idea sounded so hot and I was so turned on that I wanted to try it. I wanted to know what it felt like to have someone else put something in me so it would feel like I was actually having sex. Plus the cucumber was big enough that he could hold one end and put the other end inside without touching my vagina, so I let him do it.

It was awkward at first cuz he didn't know what he was doing. He kept going too fast and too deep and hitting my cervix, which hurt but luckily he wasn't that strong so it didn't hurt too bad. I had to coach him how to do it right and eventually he got good at it. It was really hot and it felt so good to just lay back and close my eyes feeling the cucumber going inside me and not knowing what he was going to do next. His hand did slip and touched my vagina a couple of times but I didn't care because it felt good when it did cuz it was hitting my clit, but I ended up feeling guilty about it later. It was so nice to have my hands free to do other stuff while he was thrusting the cucumber. I was squeezing my breasts and rubbing my clit and moaning really loud. I kept telling him to go faster and he started thrusting faster than I've ever been able to before. Oh God it felt amazing! I came twice in a row and it was so intense. I ended up squirting again and some of it got on my brother, which made me feel bad but it was really funny at the same time. He said "ew gross, you peed on me!" and I had to convince him that it wasn't pee.

I felt really awkward and guilty about it afterwards and I told myself I would never do anything like that again, but after the guilt passed I found I kept fantasizing about it and I did end up asking him to do it 2 more times that year. I stopped after the third time because I noticed he got an erection and I was afraid that it was getting too weird. I didn't want to commit incest or anything. I guess I sort of already did but I didn't want it to go any further. It wasn't so bad when I thought that he was innocent but then when he was getting turned on I knew he was going to be starting puberty soon and I didn't want him to be thinking of me like that. I never did it again after that. He asked me a couple times later if he could because I think he enjoyed it and so did I but I told him it was wrong. We never talked about it after that, but I know he remembered because he would always try to see me naked or catch me masturbating, and I caught him masturbating with my socks and panties and stuff a few times after he turned 12. I think he stopped after a while and things got real awkward between us. For a long time we wouldn't talk to each other or barely look each other in the eye, but things are finally starting to go back to normal again.