Reply: When a man has you, do you belong to him for the rest of your life?

Very likely if after ten years you still feel you belong to him

During a storm I was unable to go home so my boss took me to his house with him. The storm was very strong and he kept me in his bed with him, not that he had planned to take me into his bed. He had sex with me while the storm raged outside.  He had sex with me three times that night, until I just completely gave in and offered zero resistance.

That was ten years ago. I'm much older, a grown woman, not a that young innocent woman he took with him to protect.  I cannot move on.  It's like I have chain around my neck. I have never had sex with any other man, I don't dare, but also I don't want to.  He apologized but he has continued having sex with me, I am his rag doll. 

I have heard of girls that once a 'man' has sex with them they can never break the spell, they belong to that man the rest of their life.  Is this what has happened to me? Am I destined to belong to him, separated only by the Almighty?  If that is my fate, I will surrender to it.