Reply: The down side of having a big dick

well your problem is better than having a small cock like me. i got teased in school when we would get changed for PE and sports and have to take showers. the other kids would point and look at my tiny cock and think it was funny. then she. i stared hating out with girls i'd get to feel them up and as soon as was they saw mycock they would make comments. the few girls i has sex with would ask me Is it in yet? it's the absolute worst thing and ruined my life. so give me a big cock any day 

I'm not sure if it's the right place for this confession, so let me know.
Anyway, as the title say, I have a pretty large dick. It's something I learned from girls reactions and even from friends who saw me naked, and not some usual bragging. In length it more than the average I guess, but it mostly very thick.
Having a "thick cock" is something that can sounds great, but it's really frustrating sometimes. I didn't have a lot of sexual partners, maybe 5, but almost with all of them its girth prevent me from doing things.
With my ex, which we were together for few years it was even hard to have regular sex. Her vegina was pretty narrow and everytime it was a mission to enter without hurting her too much, and the sex couldn't be long because it started hurting her after several minutes. And everytime after sex she bleeded and needed a few days, up to a week, to it to heal and be ready to have sex again. She went to several doctors but we couldn't fix this problem.
This issue also prevented me from getting blowjobs, which I so truly want to get. My ex (same one) hated giving me blowjobs because of that, so it happened maybe 2-3 times a year. 2 other girls I hooked up with tried to give me one, but it was too big for their mouth so only the tip could fit, and even that didn't feel good because their teeth grind over my glans.
Only one girl I met gave me the most amazing blowjob ever. She could fit it in her mouth and let me push it relatively deep. It felt so freaking amazing, finally a blowjob (almost) like I imagined. Sadly we met only 2 times and after it she wanted us to start dating and I wasn't there, so we stopped.
Yesterday night I met another girl. She is few years younger than me and wasn't very experienced. Pretty quickly I understood she didn't do much before, and after I asked her she confessed she never been with anyone. I wanted her to try sucking it, but she said she's scared. Later on she agreed to try and tried 2 times but she couldn't really get it in her mouth so she wanted to stop. I went home so frustrated. I made her squirt a few times even she was in her period, and I didn't even cum as she got tired after jerking me for 2 minutes, and as I said she didn't want to suck it.
It's hard to believe that I'm saying it but sometimes I wish I had a smaller dick. Or girls would have bigger mouths, that's even better haha. Im so kinky and I just want to get wild and get an amazing deep blowjob, is it too much to ask?!