Reply: My Nude Magazine Appearance

when I was a kid I did a couple of sex vids with both boys my age and younger girls that nobody in my family knew about 

Did you fuck any of the guys and did you have a spouse at the moment

My first question is are you still active. My second question is when you got married did you and your husband play with other people

What were your thoughts when you were masturbating in the bathroom

While visiting my extended family in Norway, when I was a young preteen, I attended sauna sessions with family members. 
Two days before returning to the US, my incredibly handsome fifteen year old boy cousin engaged me in conversation as everyone else left the sauna before producing the newest digital cam of the time from his bunch of towels after everyone else was gone. He talked me into posing nude for him. Close ups of my vag and butt as I held it open for him. 
He showed me his erection and admitted that he was going to use my pictures to masturbate with. He assured me that he already had photos of his sister, my girl cousin that was my age. There was just something so erotic about all this. I was very, very aroused. 
When he suggested anal sex, without clearly understanding what it actually meant, I did not hesitate to bend over one of the benches. Holy cow it felt both weird and very, very borderline uncomfortable to have his penis inside my anus for such a brief time before pulling it out once he ejaculated in me. 
My head was spinning, I felt both shame and excitement and I needed to find a place to masturbate. One we were back in the main house I found the privacy I needed in the bathroom to make myself orgasm quickly.
Then, as the orgasm subsided the shame crashed down on me. The next day my cousin discreetly touched my butt over my jeans as he passed behind me and I just immediately slapped his hand away and just could not make eye contact with him.
I was so relieved to leave Norway but it was back home when I fully realized that he still had all those digital pictures of me and that anchored my shame.
I was almost nineteen when we revisited Norway. He was married and acted like nothing ever happened. I have not gone back to Norway since. The shame still lingers. 

I did the same thing a few years ago.i worked back then in a small print factory which was all men apart from myself in reception/ days later and lots of asking from the guys I agreed to show a pic of me on the beach with my boobs out to prove I didn't have white bits but I declined the offer to show more.i let them see my  the next few days they talked about my breasts and told me how they loved them and hoped to see them  I showed him my breasts as I was on the , starting with topless and then naked and finishing with legs open,pussy close ups  and like yours