Reply: I don`t know why!!

I don`t really remember how young I was but I was very young. Maybe 1st or 2nd grade when I discovered my asshole. I guess it was by accident I put a finger up my butt and it felt really good. Being young and curious I would finger myself every chance I got and play with my small little dick. Together the finger up my ass playing with my dick felt so good I was sneaking around playing with myself all the time.
In the shower I would really finger myself and would get 2 or 3 fingers in y tight little hole. After weeks of fingering my ass I came up with the idea of trying something besides my fingers. I tried pencils, crayons ,markers, anything round that might fit in my ass I tried. One day I tried a hot dog wiener. Mom was asleep and I went in the bathroom took off my shorts and started trying to put the wiener in my ass. It wasn`t easy but once I got it started it was pretty easy to push it up my ass. I couldn`t believe how far up y ass it went or just how good it felt. It was almost all the way up my ass and I turned around spread my ass open and could see in the mirror the end of the wiener sticking out of my asshole and I was stroking my little dick squeezing the wiener with my asshole and it felt so good I almost passed out.
I stayed in the bathroom as long as I could with that wiener deep in my ass. I didn`t want to pull it out but didn`t want Mom to wake up and start asking questions. I pulled it out and that felt really good too. I flushed it down the toilet and went to my room. I couldn`t stop thinking about that wiener in my ass and how I knew I would be doing that again very soon.
The next time I put one up my ass I worked it in and out and that really felt good. After that I learned how to fuck myself and with a little Vaseline penetration was much easier and I could take things I never dreamed I could get in my ass. Late at night with everyone sound asleep I would stick Vaseline up my ass and stick all sorts of things up my ass and I figured out how to fuck myself hands free by placing things in such a way that they wouldn`t move then lower myself down on to them or on my hands and knees back up to them and take them up my ass. I became addicted to being penetrated and wanted something up my ass all the time.
We lived out in the country so I had different places outside where I would go and hide take my pants off and spend a lot of time sticking anything up my ass and a few things were difficult if not impossible to get in my tiny hole but I kept trying. I had several things in the house that I used often and getting naked outdoors sticking things up my ass was my favorite thing to do.
I have a cousin that I grew up with and like all young boys he and I played with each other all the time and we knew how to suck on each other and did that a lot. I remember summers when we were always together when our Mom`s would run errands in town and we would be home alone we were naked stroking and sucking on each other.
We were naked on the couch one day he was sucking my dick and stopped to turn me over. He squeezed my ass cheeks and spread me open and touched his finger to my asshole. When I didn`t stop him he stuck his finger up my ass and started to work it in and out and when I told him I liked it he really fingered me good fast and hard. Then he took his finger out and got on top of me and I felt his hard dick poking at my asshole and I couldn`t wait for him to stick it in me and I spread my ass cheeks with both hands and he managed to put his dick in my ass and then he pushed it all the way in and he started to fuck me and it felt so good I asked him to keep doing it.
He knew I liked it and he told me it felt good to him so he kept doing it until he got off. Neither of us could cum at that age but it sure felt good. For the next 3 hours he stuck his dick in my asshole countless times and he and I were in my bedroom with me bent over the side of my bed and him behind me with is dick in my ass when we heard the car pull in to the garage and our Mom`s were back home. He took his dick out of my ass and we got dressed really fast and were in my room acting normal when they came in to check on us.
That day was a day I will never forget and for about 10 years my cousin fucked me countless times. After we both got old enough to cum he always came in me and we would suck each other off a lot and we both liked to suck each other off and swallow each others cum. It was just not as good to stop and stroke each other it was more exciting to cum in each others mouths. We liked to 69 best and any time we could do it and not get caught we did. He fucked me often many times just a quickie pants down bent over with him behind me fucking my ass. Cum in me pull out pull up our jeans and wait for the next time. I liked spreading my ass open for him to penetrate me and every time I felt the head of his dick touch my asshole I got excited and most of the time we would talk to each other while we were fucking and it was always exciting when I would hear him say "I`m fixing to cum!" and the level of excitement picked up when he did.
For years I gladly let him take my ass when ever he wanted and sometimes it was me asking for it. He came in me hundreds of times over the years and I took his dick up my ass and liked it every time. Once we got old enough to drive we would go fishing or somewhere on weekends and we fucked all the time and if we were drinking beer the sex got pretty wild. Drunk camp outs included a lot nudity sucking and him fucking me and he liked to tie me up and fuck my ass when he was drunk.
He would play with my asshole lick and suck on it stick things up my ass and he loved shoving his big dick up my ass really hard. He liked to fuck e face down and he always pulled my dick out between my legs and he liked to fuck me really hard and he would even talk really dirty to me pull my hands behind my back and he really got off watching in a mirror as he fucked me with his big dick. Having his cum running out of my ass excited him and even after we both had steady girlfriends we still fucked a lot.
All my life I have enjoyed anal penetration and I have had a few men fuck me over the years and I like sex toys and use them often. I am happy married live a normal life these days have Grandchildren but I will always remember my younger years and all the hot sex I had with my hung cousin.
I have brought it up to him several times over the years and I would enjoy doing it with him again but he won`t do it and don`t even want to talk about it. I let him know I am still interested but he won`t do it.