Reply: Sucking

I wish that I never sucked two boys cocks. They are the only cocks I have sucked. My ex-wife didn't care about one of the guys I sucked but she knew one of the other guy. She didn't even care that I did suck my cock before I met her. I was in my late twenties when I was not able to suck my cock any more. She just wanted to see if I could suck my cock. We divorce not because I let her know about the two boys cocks I sucked because she stayed three more years after everything was out in the open. We had sex every night. She even would use a dildo on me which was exciting for the both of us. She cheated. I don't have a desire to suck a man's cock. The two boys one was when I was a freshman in high school and the other when he was 19 and I was 32. Four month before going out with her before we were married several years later. The bad part is that I can't find someone like her. I am not a bad looking guy. I have had some major medical problems. I can not get an hard erection like I use to. I have been told by two doctors that my balls are small. I cannot ejaculate cum any more. It's just pre cum. I want to get with a women, one who will be honest and truthful and care for me as much as I cared for my ex-wife. I am tired of being alone and lonely. I want a life with someone that likes to go on trips and the movies and out to eat. I don't have a lot of money since being on disability. Hopefully I will be able to get to work again and have some money. I am 59 years old and tired of being unhappy and want to die.