I'm 22, from the UK, and a virgin who has no sexual or relationship experience. I feel attracted to men and women.
I think I'm attracted to women because when I was 7 yrs old, I knew an older girl who touched me and made me feel amazing. I didn't know what was happening to me at the time. But I honestly don't regret letting her touch me. She awakened a part of me which I never knew. She showed me how to rub my clit and how good it felt to put a finger inside of me. As I grew up I realised she awakened my attraction towards women.
I like the idea of being touched although I've never spoken up about it so I've never had any girl or guy even kiss me. I've never given anyone the slightest 'hint' because truthfully, I am very shy and inexperienced. I just need to be gently taught for now and maybe my courage will build.
I've always fantasized about being eaten out by an open-minded female, because I want this to be my first sexual experience. I think it will be what 'makes or breaks' my fate of either being straight, Bi or Lesbian/gay. I feel I should experience it in order to make a decision and in order to feel like I've not missed out on a great experience such as getting eaten out
I wish I knew someone who could give me that experience. Sometimes I fantasize about that girl who touched me, but I don't know where she is. She is probably married now. I just remember the sensations she gave me. I always wish I could meet someone like her again but..I doubt I will
