Reply: Starting a second life as a housebroken woman

I am a 37 year old lesbian, professional. My early years were quite active and I had a series of girlfriends. As I got older, into my thirties, things slowed down considerably. I could not, and can't, work up an interest in older women. 

A man I know, an older man of course, told me that being lesbian would take me nowhere. At the time I told him to F off and he laughed at me. He is still part of my life and I had to tell him that being a lesbian sucked, I was lonely, and I couldn't make anything happen. 

He suggested, mind you, he came up with it. Why not get pregnant and have a kid of my own to invest myself into. He had to be kidding, but he wasn't. He agreed, or rather suggested to me, that he would take care of the problem. As I say, I'm 37, I have a one year old baby, and I'm pregnant again. This old man knocked me up. 

I have not worked since I was around six months pregnant.  Because it gives him pleasure to put me up and keep me. An allowance, a house, a car, and a nanny. After the baby was born I started calling him Daddy. He's shown me how he wants me, and he gets his jollies seeing me naked. Sex is missionary. Nothing kinki. If I start to tell him how I made out with a woman, he tells me to keep it to myself. I did tell him that on the man front he was the first, and has been the only one. That he likes, and more than once he has pressed himself on me and told me he likes that he got my virginity. 

After basically two years I'm available to him. It's his house and I'm the woman he keeps here. My thoughts are returning to work when these two are in grade school, but I haven't talked to him about it, he likes watching me cook and doing laundry. He likes that I've become a woman. He wants me to be kept by him.